Fever nights... I have them. Not in the good way sadly. I am so totally sick right now. I am nauseated and just feeling gross and I just randomly woke up to my mom in the living room and she gave me a hug and said I had a fever. When mom says it, it's gotta be true. Right? Duh.
Now I am watching Ratatouille while I wait to fall back asleep into what will probably be a shitty sleep. Hooray! Why do we need to feel needed to feel happy? I just got a job, I have great friends, I have an amazing robotics team and the girls on it kick butt as well as LOVE me but all I can think about is this guy... It seems stupid to me sometimes the random things I notice about human beings almost like I'm not one, but then I buy right into it because I am one. My brain makes me laugh.
I have 24 hours to get better! I'm pretty sure I can do it if I can get some good sleep and stop stressing out about whatever the heck I'm stressing out about. :] I am taking solace in the fact that there are a lot of people in my area who are sick. Lets hope it's a short flu thing and I'll be back on my feet tonight! I have a meeting with Human Resources at my new job on Friday! I also have a meeting with the lady who I might be house sitting for in December for 5 weeks... all by my lonesome.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
This is why we [fight]
I got a job today as a C.N.A. which is what I've been trained as. I will be working part time day shift when-ever-the-fuck-they-need-me shift. I am pretty excited for myself actually... this is really awesome. I get money! And... isn't that what this world is about? Money? Ithinkso.
It's actually seriously hilarious I got the job because I went though the whole interview with my zipper down. That is how much skills I have. Enough to get a job even though I can't dress myself properly.
The only thing is that huge rush of "I AM FUCKING AWESOME" has made me so super tired at 9pm and I'm about to crash right now. Still on hold with the dude situation. I'm almost 99% sure that isn't gonna go anywhere at this point. Oh well. More fish in the pond, eh?
Also, I had a brain wave today that this Occupy Wall Street is the Vietnam protesting of my generation. I really want to get out there at least for a day so I can say I was there. I am super glad that even though we have more rules and regulations, people still have the fighting spirit to do what they feel is right. That is what this country is about. I love it. Nighty night, blogland.
It's actually seriously hilarious I got the job because I went though the whole interview with my zipper down. That is how much skills I have. Enough to get a job even though I can't dress myself properly.
The only thing is that huge rush of "I AM FUCKING AWESOME" has made me so super tired at 9pm and I'm about to crash right now. Still on hold with the dude situation. I'm almost 99% sure that isn't gonna go anywhere at this point. Oh well. More fish in the pond, eh?
Also, I had a brain wave today that this Occupy Wall Street is the Vietnam protesting of my generation. I really want to get out there at least for a day so I can say I was there. I am super glad that even though we have more rules and regulations, people still have the fighting spirit to do what they feel is right. That is what this country is about. I love it. Nighty night, blogland.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Men.
Seriously? What the hell is up with guys. Why don't they just do what they say they are going to do. Also, I really dislike the fact that girls have been pinned with being so clingy when I've had to deal with the most clingiest men of all time. It absolutely goes both ways on that one. I currently have two human beings within my... circle? Relationship bubble...? Not sure what it is but whatever it is, it is. One of these two human beings I want out and they are just not taking the hint which is sad because I hate being mean. The other one I want in my bubble for forever and he is busy for the next week and I bet that if I don't text him that he won't text me.
If I follow the rules of "He's Just Not That Into You" then Human Being B doesn't like me [hence the lack of communication.] Sadly, Human Being B is an army man and has been described as the most boring person on the planet. I think he is fascinating and he makes me laugh.
This isn't even why I decided to blog today. My real reason is to ask if normal people have external monologues as well as external dialogues. I hope so because sometimes I feel crazy, but it feels so right to say some things out loud instead of keeping it inside even if no one is listening. Right? I feel like I'm not alone in this. I guess in a way this blog is an external monologue.
I wonder if someday some high school drama student will be crappily reading my blogs for a scene to be graded. I hope it never comes to this. It might. It's the future. ... or so I've heard.
Have you ever been so impatient for something that you make yourself nauseous? I do this frequently actually... or I will get nervous or anxious about things and make myself sick. I think I am nervous for my Robotics team, there is a competition on the 29th of October called Girls Generation where the drive team can only be girls. I think they will do amazing, but we get $2,000 if we win so basically... we need to dominate this competition. I'm pretty confident in them... I think!
Overall, today was a really good day. It was super rainy and I love when it rains like crazy.
If I follow the rules of "He's Just Not That Into You" then Human Being B doesn't like me [hence the lack of communication.] Sadly, Human Being B is an army man and has been described as the most boring person on the planet. I think he is fascinating and he makes me laugh.
This isn't even why I decided to blog today. My real reason is to ask if normal people have external monologues as well as external dialogues. I hope so because sometimes I feel crazy, but it feels so right to say some things out loud instead of keeping it inside even if no one is listening. Right? I feel like I'm not alone in this. I guess in a way this blog is an external monologue.
I wonder if someday some high school drama student will be crappily reading my blogs for a scene to be graded. I hope it never comes to this. It might. It's the future. ... or so I've heard.
Have you ever been so impatient for something that you make yourself nauseous? I do this frequently actually... or I will get nervous or anxious about things and make myself sick. I think I am nervous for my Robotics team, there is a competition on the 29th of October called Girls Generation where the drive team can only be girls. I think they will do amazing, but we get $2,000 if we win so basically... we need to dominate this competition. I'm pretty confident in them... I think!
Overall, today was a really good day. It was super rainy and I love when it rains like crazy.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Empty Spaces
Today was one of those days that requires copious amounts of alcohol and chocolate. It's not like the day went terribly wrong, just that I feel so worn out and just drained from today's happenings that I just took a 30 minute shower and cried. What the hell is up with that? It's amazing how little stress plus some other factors can really just mess with people.
I'm fine, really... just a crazy day. I went and got the application from the place that contacted me back and it went fine. ...Until I realized I had to have a written and signed biography of me from 3 previous employers and 2 personal references. I got two of those five today which required a tedious amount of running around. I haven't been able to get a hold of the one employer that is attached to the medical business and my most recent employer.
Another thing that really bothered me today was the fact that I had to write at least 4 times on this application that the reason why I lost my most recent job is because the client died. I kid you not, I wrote it so many times the words have lost most of the meaning. This is why I waited so long to go out and get a new job. I figured this would happen and I didn't feel like explaining it so soon. It's really annoying that I can't tell people how AMAZING my client/patient/friend was who passed away.
None of this is being helped by the fact that I just haven't eaten much of anything in three days. I feel relatively fine, just worn out. Those normal "you should eat something" feelings just aren't happening and I know I should eat, but without those, I forget about it until it's way too late and I just feel awful. Like today! Yay.
Sorry for the crazy negative post. One positive thing is that I got to see some teachers and the principal from my high school today and it was so nice to see them. Tomorrow I am going to go help with the library system.
I'm fine, really... just a crazy day. I went and got the application from the place that contacted me back and it went fine. ...Until I realized I had to have a written and signed biography of me from 3 previous employers and 2 personal references. I got two of those five today which required a tedious amount of running around. I haven't been able to get a hold of the one employer that is attached to the medical business and my most recent employer.
Another thing that really bothered me today was the fact that I had to write at least 4 times on this application that the reason why I lost my most recent job is because the client died. I kid you not, I wrote it so many times the words have lost most of the meaning. This is why I waited so long to go out and get a new job. I figured this would happen and I didn't feel like explaining it so soon. It's really annoying that I can't tell people how AMAZING my client/patient/friend was who passed away.
None of this is being helped by the fact that I just haven't eaten much of anything in three days. I feel relatively fine, just worn out. Those normal "you should eat something" feelings just aren't happening and I know I should eat, but without those, I forget about it until it's way too late and I just feel awful. Like today! Yay.
Sorry for the crazy negative post. One positive thing is that I got to see some teachers and the principal from my high school today and it was so nice to see them. Tomorrow I am going to go help with the library system.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Job Hunt
Today I was motivated to get my resume into a few places. I sent them out at 5 and got a response within a few hours to come in to fill out an application. Pretty excited about that! I will let you know how it goes tomorrow.
I just had the best phone conversation with one of my best friends. She and I have so much fun together, I love it. We have plans on Saturday to clean and go paint ceramics! Super duper excited for that.
I had an interesting day on a personal level... I learned that I don't really have commitment issues but I just didn't really want to be with those people. It feels like someone has turned on a light inside my mind and I feel so much better for it. For once, I'm excited about the future of dating and just having fun... like a 21 year old should be doing.
Have a great day tomorrow, Bloggers!
I just had the best phone conversation with one of my best friends. She and I have so much fun together, I love it. We have plans on Saturday to clean and go paint ceramics! Super duper excited for that.
I had an interesting day on a personal level... I learned that I don't really have commitment issues but I just didn't really want to be with those people. It feels like someone has turned on a light inside my mind and I feel so much better for it. For once, I'm excited about the future of dating and just having fun... like a 21 year old should be doing.
Have a great day tomorrow, Bloggers!
Patience is a virtue...
Patience also goes out the window whenever I'm waiting for something that I'm nervous about. Seriously, there has never been a time that I just waited for stuff to happen no matter what the situation was. If I'm nervous about it, I cannot wait to figure it out, get it over with or figure out a way to be done with it. I also dislike whenever there is that kind of situation and then when you think it will resolve itself, more shit comes up. What the fuck.
I have never been more confused about stupid little things than I am right now. Well, I am sure I have been more confused but I am a "my way or the highway" kind of person, I learned today, and this isn't going my way and there is no highway. When this happens, I tend to stop sleeping and eating. Just a few minutes ago, I realized I've only had a little bit of fried rice, tea and a chai latte today. My brain has been preoccupied by other things, some good, some amazing and some just bleh. Although today was quite relaxing, it was also taxing.
Sleep, now I must.
I have never been more confused about stupid little things than I am right now. Well, I am sure I have been more confused but I am a "my way or the highway" kind of person, I learned today, and this isn't going my way and there is no highway. When this happens, I tend to stop sleeping and eating. Just a few minutes ago, I realized I've only had a little bit of fried rice, tea and a chai latte today. My brain has been preoccupied by other things, some good, some amazing and some just bleh. Although today was quite relaxing, it was also taxing.
Sleep, now I must.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Apple Spice Tea
Celestial Seasonings has the best Cinnamon Apple Spice tea in existence... for a bagged tea! I'll admit it, I am a total tea snob. I do have bagged teas and when I am in a hurry, busy or just lazy. Loose leaf teas are where it's at, my friends. Loose leaf tea and the proper brewing times of course.
The last few days, I've been nursing a budding cold. More like kicking its ass! Ha. I have Coldeeze, Multi-Vitamins, Vitamin D... chicken noodle soup. I'm already feeling better, maybe.
The one thing about Washington that I couldn't live without is the perpetual green. It's fall time and leaves are changing colors, some more gracefully than others. The evergreens continue to shine that gorgeous color as the weather casts a grey glow upon the landscape.
Hot tea, good book, comfy sweater and a perfect view out my window. Today is a great day!
The last few days, I've been nursing a budding cold. More like kicking its ass! Ha. I have Coldeeze, Multi-Vitamins, Vitamin D... chicken noodle soup. I'm already feeling better, maybe.
The one thing about Washington that I couldn't live without is the perpetual green. It's fall time and leaves are changing colors, some more gracefully than others. The evergreens continue to shine that gorgeous color as the weather casts a grey glow upon the landscape.
Hot tea, good book, comfy sweater and a perfect view out my window. Today is a great day!
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