Smart Kid

After years of research... of myself, I have decided that I would much rather be the stupidest person in a classroom so I could learn instead of the smartest person. It just makes my brain hurt. Not being challenged is just awful... One example, the teacher referred to taking Acetylsalicyclic Acid which is Asprin! So, I said, "Asprin." She was pleased I knew what it was and the rest of the students stared at me like I was from outer space.

Today was a disappointing day. We were supposed to go help someone out this weekend but our trip was cut short. It really sucked on so many levels that I have been sworn not to say. All I can say is the most level of suckage that it had was the fact that we couldn't go and help this "person". That's about it.

I signed up for a nurse delegation training/class and part one of two was tonight. It was... good information, really! I know more for my job as well as places that I will not allow any family members I like to go because they hire stupid people. 

The teacher for the class is an amazing lady! She's an active RN and she reminds me of my cousin Gabriella and her mommy, Kelly as an older lady. It's crazy hilarious because it's how I remember her before she died [Kelly] and it is so nice to be able to interact with what she might have acted like. 

I am working on trying to not say anything if I have something negative to say because it never gets translated correctly and who really wants to hear anything negative, right? There are times when I have nothing to say that's not obvious [and therefore negative most of the time] so I say nothing. It's hard to let people know that is what is going on at the same time as not saying anything or just saying things are good. So far, it's been a successful mission. :]

No boot? No problem!

Since I never really let you know, I had surgery about a month ago. They took out a screw... it was loose. HA! Anyway, I've been in a walking boot around home and out. It actually got infected but it's all better and I don't need the boot anymore! He just said that I couldn't be jumping off of things and doing any real high-impact things. Shoot... those are the only things I want to do right now. :]
Here is a picture of said screw:

I was inspired to post again today because I am currently drinking a chai cola. It is so kickass. Everyone who enjoys chai in the least bit should try it because it is a party in my mouth and everyone in asia or a trendy coffee shop is invited. 


I've also been thinking about my aunt who has cancer and is going for a biopsy on Friday. It's not something that I think about all day every day, but I know it's in the back of her mind all of the time and that is something I could never really do without going batshit crazy. I admire her for her strength as a mom, an aunt and a cancer fighter.

Weird.

I may be getting older. Wiser? Perhaps. Why am I still blogging and not in bed? My answer to not wanting to get old. This has been a serious issue recently. Since when was any part of being 20-29 old? I feel like I'm going through the terrible twenties sometimes. 

Anyway, that is not my reason for writing. I've realized that in my youth I am wise. Looking back on my posts about my [now] ex boyfriend make me smile because at the time I truly enjoyed his company and we had an amazing time together. I learned a lot about myself and what I need to make a relationship work. I also learned what I am not willing to put up with and how much strength I have. 

I've been on a few dates with a few guys since then... nothing serious yet. Who cares? I'm 21... I don't need to commit to anyone except Doctor Who. 

Honestly, I can't even commit to reading one book at a time. I'm currently reading The Sweet Far Thing by Libba Bray as well as The Best American Nonrequired Reading. I'm not much of a highlighter person, but reading BANR, I am tempted to highlight the phrases and passages that really hit me hard in any way. They just make sense to me and I've never really read something that encapsulates what I can't put into words myself.

Ah... Resolution complete.

So, apparently a New Years Resolution is for the entire year instead of just a couple of months. Who knew?

Well, I am sorry for such shotty blogging. It's unfair to pretend that the last few posts were actual posts. It was me falling behind after my Boston trip and failing to post after the continuous workload placed on me. Anyway, there is a lot to catch you up on, reader. I feel bad there is so many things you need to know about the last few months of my life and yet, you probably will never know. Oh well! You'll figure it out soon enough.

It's interesting as to how many times I truly was upset about this blog and how all I wanted to do was come back and write on it but I was ashamed because I failed to write. Of course I was already depressed because I had lost my patient, E. That didn't help at all. After doing a report in English 102 and feeling depressed about blogging for so many months, I've realized that shame is a huge depressant. Feeling shame, for any reason, is just awful. At times it made me laugh, others not so much. I really just felt bad about leaving you to your own devices, little reader, and I am sorry.


Now after all of that I cannot, for the life of me, remember why the hell I started this blog post in the first place. Something sparked me enough to pull through my shamefull un-bloggingness and I cannot remember what it is. Believe me, there is a LIST of crap I could have been thinking of writing about at this point!


I had a great day filled with baking pumpkin spice bread, making dinner and Robotics. My sister and I have a "Halloween Series Special" which is where every day we have 2-3 Halloween episodes of different TV series that we are finding online and on Netflix. It's been a great experience to share with her. She just got her drivers license and it has been interesting. I feel like she doesn't need me anymore, which I know is untrue. Weird feeling, but I'm super proud of her.


Although I would love to write all about what has happened in the last 6ish months, I can't tonight. Long story short...? Stuff happened. I am alive and well.